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october 29th



my body is a place of worship 

regularly desecrated,

a basket of ripe fruit 

circled by the starving,

a lamb in the woods 

smelled by the wolves,

built to sacrifice

to eat 

to devour 

until there is nothing left but bones


lay me on the altar as abraham did to isaac 

tell me this is gods work 

that the knife you brought is heavy with the desires of your creator 

who is this to satisfy?

is your blood hot as you pray 

would you look in my eyes, or at the sky 

when the moment arrives,

who is to blame? 

my father, on earth 

my father, in heaven

my lover, 

hands around my throat 

so he may control my life and death 

and play both 


neither answer my cries

nor feed me when hungry

but i must be grateful

because they love me so much 

that they’ll punish my sins 

and correct my foolish mistakes

as though they are an extension of their own 

as i am an extension of them 

grateful even in death for their guidance 

for the decisions they make for me 

so my brain does not become filled with thoughts unbecoming


i am the perfect daughter

i am the perfect lover

i sacrifice myself willingly 

i lay myself on the altar 

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