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equanimity (noun)

equanimity (noun)
mental calmness, composure, evenness of temper
ironic i'm sure
poems have been written about you before,
i know but i swore
this one will be different
creativity is a commitment 
my libra you should know
fingers writing and skin aglow
the words continue to flow
from your mind to pen to paper
you're a born creator
a movie maker
old hollywood glamour,
darling your beauty 
i know, go ahead and shoot me
but you're enigmatic
charismatic,
captivating
and debilitating,
maybe a tad intimidating?
you're a renaissance painting
made of royal colours 
you're warm
and inviting
you're indecisive 
and divisive
acting on impulse and emotion
i pledge my endless devotion
to the libra that started it all
your mind may not be calm
and you may lose your composure
but you're stepping ever closer
to that evenness of temper
maybe blue isn't the warmest colour
but we'll always have eachother
since those evenings spent with your mother
drinking tea amongst roses
and every word I've written is devoted
to those moments
forever in your debt,
and my libra i promise
whether your mind is calm or turbulent 
or if your brain starts an argument
with itself 
i'll remain observant 
there is nowhere else
i'd rather be than by your side
i'm hypnotised
in the best way
and although the summer doesn't want to stay
our friendship will last through these rainy days
you have a pisces moon after all
and you can swim upstream
whatever the future means 
or holds
because truth be told
your words will take you places
you'll fill bookcases
the world has many faces
but by far you have my favourite
my october baby i love you
and i know others to do too
but you'll forever have a space in my heart
you've been there since the very start

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