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july 1st

july 1. too tired
there's something about this lack of feeling inspired
that's been eating at me slowly
like a ripe peach
too hard to eat
time is going a little faster now
have you noticed?
after everything being so slow
an endless march
and an unforgiving april
i hoped may would be more friendly
pushing us along gently
with a reassuring touch
promising us
that june had her arms open
ready for an embrace
with the belief
the summer we all wanted to chase
was waiting patiently
warm to the touch
and slightly suffocating,
yet may betrayed me
and june left me exhausted
the days ran by 
and i could not keep up
standing helpless beneath the sun
ready for a change of pace
and scenery
i need to get back to the greenery
something more to inspire me
than passionate yearning
and childish desire
for tenuous romance
july i beg you bring serenity
thick summer air
and lazy afternoons
let the heat make me tired
naturally
instead of this constant chasing
and endless uncertainty 
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