my love

  in case you ever foolishly forget; i am never not thinking of you nor is my heart ever not yearning for the comfort of your presence  as vita told virginia all those years ago words burned into the hearts of lovers you’ve reduced me to a thing of wants a foolish creature and a desperate one please, release me it’s been painful for an eternity i miss you endlessly more than i could have imagined  yet it doesn’t need repeating you know everything already you’ve always been far too clever,  beautifully clever whisper something sweet to me something wise, something wild plant seeds and watch them grow  until i’m able to finally know how the world looks through your eyes, maybe colours will seem brighter and the air more satisfying to breathe if i knew how it felt to love the way you do and be loved, the way you are, in the future someone will read these words and adore them in the same way we adore theirs, perhaps they’ll adore us too and be inspired to love human...

  a thousand tiny windows have gone by stacked higher and higher into the darkened sky until they look like stars, lonely clusters of constellations the hushed ambience of quiet conversation blends gently with the humming of the carriage  the repetition beautiful and endless every minute both personal and precious  yet shared with so many  the unrivalled bliss of complete anonymity  in this moment i am anybody, everybody and nobody the air is rich with mystery brief eye contact with a stranger multitudes bloom in oceans of blue,  green, and brown what unexpected peace i have found through the glance of another  a thousand more hours i would suffer below blinding screens and cancellations  forgotten tickets, and commiseration because anywhere is better than where i am right now i’ll travel to the end of the earth to escape my own thoughts when they fill my head and begin to spill and pool around my feet but they cannot compete with the encompassing...